Hate this feeling
I'm having such a down day today! I suffer from depression and the last couple of days I've just been soo down no actually reason suppose just loads of little things, I've got to the point where I feel like I can't even be bothered to get married just haven't got any go in me! I feel like people are not bothered about my wedding like my mom and sisters! One even said dont know why people bother getting married its just a waste! My mom hasn't really said anything and has helped with the wedding plans, she has brought my dress and helping with other things! Also I feel like people are not going to enjoy the day at all! 5 and half months away! Just after we booked ours my uncle has booked his for months after so shouldn't even bother me but they have unlimited budget and I don't want people to look back and say on their wedding was soo much better they had better food and bits! Suppose just need a rant, know if I talk to h2b he will say that I'm just having a moment (have a lot if moments ha). My maid of honour seems like the only one interested so today as both off we are going to do a weddingy day go to venue and shopping but just don't feel like it!! Sorry for long rant just need to say it all!!