Need to vent somewhere
I've been really excited about my wedding in July 2014 and have constantly been on this forum and looking at wedding stuff but I've had a really bad couple of weeks. My cat, who I love more than anyone or anything in the whole world has been ill with cystitis and it's been quite serious as if his urinary tract gets blocked up suddenly it could be fatal. I've now got a huge vets bill on it's way to me which I can't afford and it's caused a couple of arguments with me and my OH, also because the cat's been weeing around the flat. My OH isn't a cat lover and has been going on about the money and how naughty he is for weeing on the bed etc. and I've just been worried sick and not even thinking of stuff like that. It turned into a big argument last week and my OH stormed out and shouted at me when I was crying. Now he's being lovely and helpful with the cat and helping me with his medication and he's paying half of the vets bill but I got so upset about the way he dealt with it and some of the things he said that I can't seem to get over it.
I've spent the past couple of weeks constantly worried and stressed and I still am. The cat has to get another urine test tomorrow to check on his progress but I've got a feeling he's going to need further treatment, which will cost more money.
I haven't been looking at this forum, or anything wedding related and when my OH suggests doing some planning, I'm just not interested. I feel on the verge of tears most of the time. We even ordered my wedding ring last week and I'm not excited about it arriving anymore.
I've also been angry at some of my friends and bridesmaids who just haven't been communicating with me at all, about anything wedding related, or to see how the cat is, or how I am. I feel like I don't want some of these people involved in the wedding if they don't even bother. I've tried to arrange meet-ups but they never end up happening.
I just feel really depressed at the moment and want to stay in all of the time and be alone. I suffer from mild S.A.D as well so it might be partly down to the change of season that's making things a bit more difficult than usual to cope with. I must be awful company at the moment, but my OH has been stressed about work and he hasn't been much better. We've started bickering every day lately and barely have been affectionate to eachother lately. This was supposed to be fun and I don't feel like I'm part of a happy, newly engaged couple at the moment.
Has anyone else had a bad patch like this?