lack of interest due to grief
On Thursday it was exactly one month until I get married, it was also the day my mum suddenly died.
My mum and dad are divorced but this would have been their 27th wedding anniversary, they were married for 24 years. Mum had her wedding ring on when she died which is unusual.
Mum had her own demons mainly lack of confidence, alcohol and mental health issues which led to my now 15 year old-brother living with me for the past 14 months.
I know that the wedding will go ahead but all my joy and excitement has gone, it now just feels like another job that needs to be done.
I can't talk to my family about this as they are all in shock and won't understand. It has been decided that I will be the one who deals with the funeral and sorting out legal affairs on top of being there for my brother (and other siblings there are 6 of us) whilst finalising my wedding because according to them I am the strong one.
I don't want people to attend the wedding thinking oh poor Kate, what a shame I want my guests to the happy for me and not make comments that are meant well. Sorry for rambling hope it makes sense. I just need to get my feelings off my chest