I don't know if I can do this....
Ok everyone I realise I am going I sound like a complete drama queen but I'm really really upset and I don't know what to do. I have a major issue .. I just got back from my hen do (my bridesmaids and mother in law only my mum couldn't come) and I had a amazing time but apart from all the comments my mother in law made from commenting on my dress (I think lace dress are very common and I think they look cheap.. I only had lace because my mother made me have it) about my weight (a size 12 wow that must be a massive size 12 ...(I'm a 10 to 12 and quite self conscience of my 32gg boobs) lace dresses really are for very skinny brides...(looks at me and pulls a face) your boobs are a funny shape .. on my bridesmaids dresses which her two daughters are wearing (I hate the dresses they are hideous and un flattering but I suppose it ur choice .. I have got back burst into tears .. I maybe overreacting because she says all this stuff in a passive jokey way .. My hubby to be nos but he's spoken to her about it and she says that she never said it or cries or both
I realise im not marring my mother but it's not really true or fair because he loves her and I hate her ... It's giving me serious cold feet because ok he talks to her then she cries then she cries to the other side of that family.. And I'm shunned at family occasions till I'm forced to make up and ignore her comments for my partners sake(which has happened in the past)
i dont want want to get married anymore because I'm worried I'm gonna look like a whale ...she's even said that I should cancel having to photographers because let's face it unless I go on a crash diet that it's really a waste
I would say something at the time but I can't explain it but she says all this in such a way I would be a bitch to call her it...
i love my partner but I don't think I can have her in my life without trying to end my own .
i keep crying because I can't see a way out x