Down in the dumps/ lost motivation
ahhh I just want to cry. Was really excited to get married and wanted everything to be perfect but now I seem to have lost interest! Don't get me wrong absoloutely love my mr and want to marry him but I feel like I can't be bothered with anything.
We are getting married next May so I have less then a year to go. I was doing really well with the diet and lost two stone now I just can't stop eating. I'm sitting here typing this now and want to go and eat chocolate!!! Never snack after dinner, last night I was stuffed but I still went and had a bag of crisps and chocolate Freddo I really need to get a grip but don't know how?!!! I want to look amazing on my wedding day and I know I have lots of weight to loose to do that.
i am really emotional at the mo about my aunt though. She was always one who would be there in Cuba with us without fail but in feb we found out she has kidney cancer and it's been really tough over the last few months. She's had one kidney removed but ita spread. I went to see her the other day and she looked terrible I wasn't quite prepared for it
she was talking about booking to come with us anyway and just loosing the money if she has too cos she's so desperate to be there with us
also so I suppose ar the back of my mind I have the fact that OH will have no family there either after a falling out and his mum just not coming for no decent reason at all
what do i do?! I don't know what to do with myself xx