I know this is not really the place where people want to read this kind of thing but I am at a loss of people to talk to.
My mum found a lump some months ago in her neck and has a persistant cough since february. After lots of test, xrays and ct scans, they have said the she is to have a biopsy on wednesday and the results will come on friday. The lump in her neck is where they will do the biopsy from however their concern is that there is something showing up on the ct scan that they are concerned about in her lungs and basically the biopsy will tell us if its related to the lungs issue. They have prepared us for the worst, which is lung cancer (my mum has never smoked) although have advised there is a million and one other things it could be.
I only found out about the biopsy and seriousness of the situation yesterday. I am finding it hard to stay positive especially since my ex husband lost his mum to lung cancer and the symptoms are identical. My ex's mum was diagnosed and then died 5 weeks later, although she was a smoker so that may have contributed to the severity of it. I am so confused and all I can think is theres just no way that this can happen to my mum! She is being so brave but I can see it in her face that she is terrified. She was over telling me and my brother and husband to be about this yesterday and then she was talking about the wedding (which is 6 weeks on saturday by the way) and she was saying she was so sorry to burst my bubble - but of course, I wasn't thinking that! I just want her to be ok but I cant stop thinking about losing my mum.
My mum actually works in the same place as me and her manager knows about it but I have been asked not to say anything until we know the severity of the issue. I asked my manager this morning (a different manager from hers) to have the day off on friday to go to the hospital with her (when she gets the results) but I just burst out crying! I didnt tell her what was wrong, just that she wasnt well and I needed to be there, which she understood.
I dont think there is anything anyone can say to make me feel better but I just really needed to get all that out