Small wedding worries
Me & my fiance got engaged this Summer and are planning our wedding for July 2017, we are waiting a bit longer than normal so I can finish my evening college qualification and we can save a bit more as I'm on quite a low income. I am thrilled but the more I sit down and start planning the more I worry about the guest list. I suffer with social anxiety and don't have many good friends.
I have 2 sisters and my fiance's sister who are going to be bridesmaids and my best friend who will be my MoH. That's really where my close girl friends stop! I have a few girl friends who I made through my fiance and they are his friends other halves. I have always struggled to make and keep friends as I am shy and get nervous in social situations, I will go out occasionally but can't always afford to, or have college work I have to do around a full time job but sometimes people take that as I can't be bothered or I'm being rude. I have swapped jobs a few times in the last few years and moved areas and although now I work with nice people, the company is small and they are all mostly older than me so we don't socialize away from work. I have a few friends from my old job but we only really manage to get to see each other around once or twice a year, so I'm not sure even if I invited them whether they would turn up.
We have about 70 people on the guest list for the day time, and around 100ish evening, but I think a lot won't come. The majority of these are family and my fiance's friends. I'm so worried that no-one is going to want to come and the brides side will look so empty and that as most of it is family, there won't be much fun and dancing. I'm trying to find a small venue so it doesn't highlight the fact that there isn't many people and hope to provide fun things like a photobooth but I just can't stop thinking about it and it's getting me down.
I really can't wait to marry H2B and I'd happily jet off somewhere hot just us 2 to do it but we know our families wouldn't like that so we are having a traditional wedding, I have been to a few this year and I just keep thinking how many people they have and how good it looks and thinking mine won't be as good.
Has anyone else had this, any tips on how to stop worrying about it? I'm still over a year away so I'm worried I'm going to drive myself crazy... as you can probably tell I am a massive worrier!! Thanks in advance xx