I'm sorry to put this here but please help? Trigger warning.
I just need some clarification on something, I know this is not the place to be putting this but I don't know who to ask or where to write. I got great support from here when I was getting married, but I am sorry!
Last night i met up with a boyfriend of a friend who recently passed away. The reason for our meeting was to talk about our friend and have a drink to her. i had never met him before as he lived in australia (he flew to england for the funeral), and for that reason I didn't tell my husband, I didn't want him to get the wrong impression for our meeting (stupid i know!!!!)
anyway, we went to the pub to cheers our friend, I ended up having much too much wine. however, I was in control of myself and aware of the surroundings. Once I said i wanted to go home he said he would pay for a cab back to the train station so he knew i was getting home safely.
we got in the cab and it stopped at his hotel, he said he needed to get some more money out his room, i trusted him, as my friends boyfriend, and went upstairs to wait whilst he got his money. I fell on the floor in the room, and I had reached a level of drunkness where it was becoming a chore to move or control myself, so i waited on the floor. he came over to me and lifted up my skirt, i told him no and put my skirt back down (i was wearing tights). however, he then continued to rub my intimate area through my tights, and was quite forceful after i tried to get him off.
I ended up punching him and trying to get out the room, he wouldnt let me out till i had calmed down.
we then went downstairs and got into a cab to get to the station, whilst he went to get me a bottle of water a girl came over to me and asked why i was crying, i told her what happened and she said oh no, thats terrible, but it happens a lot. she asked me where i was getting a train to and she said she would wait with me.
then i proceeding to start being sick!
he then came back and saw i was sat with her, and pulled me away and put me on the train, he insisted on getting the train with me so i wasnt alone. when i reached my stop i told him to walk to the other platform to get the train back into london, but he was insistent on seeing me into the taxi and paying for that. he then proceeded to put £50 in my purse.
I feel very upset and confused, I haven't told my husband.
i feel like I have done something completely wrong, even though the touching was completely uninvited. I just wanted some clarity on the situation, am I being over dramatic? Do I have a right to be upset? Have I done something wrong?
I can't believe I am this upset over someone touching me through my tights!
Sorry for rambiling, and once again I apologise for writing this in this forum