What do I do
I don't even know where to start writing this but I can't talk to my friends or family about it as they are against our wedding to start with..Anyway this is how the story goes and I really need some advice as I'm at breaking point.....I met my partner 4 years ago on a dating site and we hit it off straight away.. Things were perfect for the first couple off weeks but then I found out I was pregnant at the tender age of 41 which already having grown up kids and my youngest being 8 was a shock that I told him I couldn't cope and ended our relationship as my head was in bits..Anyway after 6 weeks we decided we would give it a go as we were going to be parents..things were great for the first few weeks but then I noticed his constant flirting with other women,he was always double taking when we were out and making me feel dreadful..I told him how his actions were making me feel but he continued till our daughter was born.. We continued to row over it and he said what he was doing was normal and get over it..this led to massive trust issues in our relationship and I never wanted him to go out as the way he was.. He took me to a show once and spent the whole night eyeing up every other woman and I was 29 weeks pregnant.. I was in tears...we have had major rows and split up a few times and the last time we both met other people for a few months but he got jealous I was with someone else and we got back together and hence now getting married..he says he has changed and I should trust him now as that was the past and he won't do it again but I'm dreading his stag do on Sat and this is making me feel ill and I'm scared once we are married it will go back to how it was before..he says I'm insecure and need to get over it but I tell him I wasn't until I met him.. Really need honest advice..am I in the wrong and I need to trust him.. Which I really want to do but I told him that it's going to take a while as he's done so much damage..