Wedding postponed - I don’t know what to do
I know that people will have their opinions on this, but if I’m brutally honest I just need some advice on what to do.
ive been with my h2b for 8 years, we have a son together and have had a lot of hurdles to get over through the years - we have and have come out stronger.
Because he has chronic pain, he struggles to sleep at home so ends up at his parents every night (they have a stairlift which helps my h2b with getting up the stairs when his pain is bad!)
He hates having to leave at night, and I hate it too. But more recently I’ve had stupid thoughts like ‘he doesnt care’ ‘he doesn’t want to try and stay at home’ ‘will we ever be able to sleep in the same house again?’
To put a long story short, I really started to listen to those awful thoughts in my head - started to believe them, and ended up putting some photos of myself up online that I shouldn’t have done - photos that only my h2b should see - which my h2b has found (now, I know everyone will say to me that I shouldn’t have done that in the first place - I know this, I really do, but I just really wasn’t in a good place mentally)
So now my h2b has said he wants to postpone the wedding, and isn’t sure what to do as far as our whole relationship goes. He’s said he doesn’t want to leave, and that deep down he still loves me. But he’s just not being himself with me at the minute, not telling me he loves me, and in all honestly I don’t really know where we stand at the moment.
I just don’t know what to do.