Realised I have no real friends
I have only been engaged a week, but gradually as we told people, the realisation set in that I don't acractually rea have any close friends.
I was always undecided in if I would have a bridal party, but now thinking about it fills me with dread. The only few close to me, I find myself always checking what I can tell yhem, and feeling disheartened by their behaviour towards me.
I would love to elope but it just isn't an option. We have ages to go, I just wish I could get excited about it all, but I just feel gutted that I'm on my own.