I am terrified
Dear all, 19 days to go I suppose to be excited but in fact I am terrified! Don't get me wrong I still want to marry him, and before he proposed I was always dreaming being a bride. Just that I still have not find a make up artist that I am 100% happy with! Initially I was going to use my own hairstylist to do my hair and make up. He has been my hairstylist for a while and he is very good with hair styling. However deep down I always worry about his make up skills and my sister said to me early in the wedding planning that I need to try him out. I mentioned to him I want a trial months ago and he kept on saying not to worry about it, we will try it 6-8 weeks in advance etc... Then I found and excuse and said I need make up for my engagement shoot, I was not happy with the way he do my make up!! My hair looked gorgeous and the make up was disappointing that even I can do better make up then he does!! Then I decided to find another make up artist! Had three trials which cost me quite a bit and although I am not 100% happy with them but one of them did stand out and her make up makes me feel really comfortable with. However I don't like the way she do my hair, she got very good ideas but she just do not have the skills to achieve it.. One hour after the trial the hair style start falling off. So I thought ok maybe I can use her just for make up and my hairstylist for hair. However she still want to charge me almost the same price for just the make up and I just text my hairstylist today that I just want him to do my hair deal to budget etc and ask him about the price. He has not get back to me and I don't know if he is offended. I did think about doing the make up myself but both my h2b and my sister, who know me best, saying no way I should do the make up myself as I am such a panicky person and I get anxious very very easily! Like now I am sooooo worry and panic that I woke up 3 or 4 times last night! On top of that during Easter lunch yesterday everyone was talking about what they are going to wear for my wedding! It feels so weird as no one seems to interest about asking me about the wedding... And somehow I feel I need to look the absolute best!!! Ahhhh please help me to calm me and give me suggestion about what to do as I am so worried and I worried that for the next two weeks I can be able to concentrate at work. Sorry to be a long one!!