I think I'm going to snap! Am I the only one?
I don't usually do this sort of thing but I am feeling so incredibly down about our forth coming nuptials that I need to vent / get this off my chest. For obvious reasons I can't speak to my H2B or parents as I feel that I'll be letting everyone down. We are getting married in a couple of months & truth be told, I cant wait for the whole bloody thing to be over! I have been engaged 18 months and whilst we have sorted all the big stuff (venue, dress, photographer, band etc) it is now getting down to the nitty gritty & I am feeling totally overwhelmed. I don't know where to start & have written so many lists its ridiculous. Rather than acting on anything & getting anything done I spend countless hours every evening surfing the internet & then feel terribly guilty that I've got nowhere! I'm struggling with readings & music for our civil ceremony & my fiancé says I should pick as he doesn't know much about music & that I wont like anything he chooses anyway, he doesn't get it that I want to choose together. Numerous family members & friends have declined our invitation (which is making me feel very unpopular) & this coupled with lots of other things is making me doubt whether we are doing the right thing which really depresses me! And if one more person asks how the plans are going I'll have a full on breakdown! Happiest time of my life? It certainly isn't.