R's brothers girlfriend refused to wear the buttonhole we'd bought for her and she's got a face on her in all the photos. She also didn't speak to me all day. Also, since the wedding, she's been having digs at me on facebook. For example, she's posted photos of the wedding and theres only one picture that I'm in. And she's posted a comment on that picture saying 'bra strap alert' because you can see my flesh coloured bra strap slightly. That's just one example, there have been loads more.
I was SOOooo nervous on my wedding day!! I typically have pretty bad anxiety anyway, and I don't feel that I mentally prepared myself well enough for the day. It got so bad that I was hiding in the dressing rooms by myself instead of enjoying the reception.
Also I went outside (in my wedding dress) and played in the church playground with my new niece and nephews - instead of joining in on the dancing going on inside. I really regretted missing it and letting my anxiety get the better of me. My new sister-in-law said she thought it was funny that I was hiding - it wasn't funny to me!
I had never been a hair or makeup kind of girl in my life - but for some reason, I decided to save money and do my own hair and makeup for the wedding. Looking at the photos, I now realize that was a big mistake!! I hardly looked like I was wearing any makeup at all, and my hair looked pretty uneven in the back. In a few of the photos I have noticeable acne.
I didn't realize it was wearing the wrong kind of underwear for my dress material. The outline of my slip could be detected by a careful observer. I was halfway through the reception before I realized this.
My husband struggles with anxiety too, and he was dealing with some of the same stuff. He got so swept up in the reception that he hardly noticed when I was hiding and didn't come looking for me. He mentioned that he hated how his pants fit - he said it felt like they were going to fall down all day!
We played a violin and guitar ballad together at the reception. We were both nervous and probably didn't practice as much as we should have in all of the flurry leading up to the wedding. When I watched a video of us later I cringed - it was too slow and somber for a happy occasion, and I missed a couple of notes. I also had my "sad orchestra face" on and forgot to smile. Only one guest told us that she enjoyed it.
My husband surprised me by singing "You Can Have All Of Me" at the reception. In private, I would have loved to listen to him - but in public, I felt that the song would never end and that people were staring at me for way too long!! He does have a lovely voice - but I wanted to run!! It would have helped if he had told me that he planned to do that.
I thought I'd be creative by inventing my own way of wearing my veil. But in the pictures, it doesn't look creative - it just looks like I literally had no idea how to wear it correctly.
I thought I would save money by making my own programs and by skipping my bridal bouquet. Some of my money saving tricks really worked, and I was proud of them - others were just a mistake and made my wedding look quite cheap. I'm very glad I didn't go into debt over the wedding, but if I could do it over again I would trust God and splurge a little more.
All in all - it was definitely an imperfect day, but there were also wonderful moments. To wrap this up, I got to marry my amazing and wonderful husband whom I love sooo much!! And that's really what weddings are about!