3 weeks to go
Well it's got closer and closer and it wasnt until we realised a couple of days ago it's only 2 weeks until we fly out.
I don't even think I'm ready lol,i dont think I've done anything a bride usually does I haven't even had the usual hen night hahaha, we both ordered custom rings from etsy, mine was too big and the place that made my partners made it way too small lmao,lucky both have been sorted now, although h2b still has no shoes lol
The road here hasn't been without its hiccups, including the possibility of us both being made redundant, my dad and oldest son his gf and little girl have all said they won't be coming, my dad due to health, he wasn't sure, one minute he was then he wasn't then he was, but now he has started coughing up blood so we don't know what's going on there, the drs are trying to do tests, it does make me feel if I shouldn't go ahead, my son originally made out he was coming for around 6 months then said he couldn't afford the flight so that left just me my partner and my 17 yr old son, if he locates his passport in his mess of a room, wedding lunch in McDonald's it will be hahaha will feel pretty stupid all dressed up with a wedding cake at a reception for 3 people
I wasn't strict enough with my wedding work out hahaha still have my flabby arms and jiggle thighs lol, my job working in a car parts supplier means I'm constantly walking around the warehouse 6 miles a day shifting driveshafts brake discs and flywheels around and even though I've been wearing gloves my nails are battered, my eyebrows started falling out a while back and I look like an alien, i hate having to try and use powder to make them look anything like normal,they just look so fake I don't want any photos showing them, i tried booking in for microblading but she said was too close to me going somewhere hot and as I can't find out if I have a nickle allergy they refuse to do it as it's too risky, wow I got it all going on pmsl alien bride hehehehe
I do feel hurt that my son said he can't afford it although I still think his gf has said they won't go but I have to accept that now, i haven't even sorted out what I'm doing with all my animals when we go,
There is now the uncertainty about our jobs again, I just feel like giving up at times, but at least I got a fab beach front villa to go chill on the balcony with a mojito and watch the sunset, just with everything going on it makes you think if you are doing the right thing by going my dad hasn't said anything but as his only child I don't know if he'd have wanted to go or not