HELP - Why am I struggling??
Okay, so its now 307 days till my wedding and I went for my second dress fitting on Saturday. I'm not the smallest of girls - never have been - so I went to a dress designer to get exactly what I wanted. I love it - I tried the first toile on Saturday and it already looks brilliant.
However, planning a wedding is having the exact opposite affect on me - I seem to be gaining weight! I'm useless, I try to diet, something happens and I give in! My fiance loves me for me and I know that but I want to feel good on my wedding day. I won't ever be a size 10 or a 14 for that matter but I really don't feel ilke an elephant! At this point, that should be all the motivation I need - but it isn't. I feel like I'm trapped in a vicious circle, I say today is the day, start dieting and then something will happen (either I give in or we go out!), at that point I beat myself up for failing which only makes me cheat all the more (yes - I know thats the ridiculous!).
I'm going back to Weightwatchers tonight to (hopefully) make a fresh start but it would be nice to know that I'm not the only one out there!!