I got my wedding photos back and I hate myself for not losing more weight

I just go my photos, and all I can focus on is my stomach. The dress fit, lots of people said nice things, I had a lovely day. BUT - I just hate that I wasn't a stone lighter.
I'd planned to lose a serious amount of weight - I was a stone and a half lighter than I am now four years ago and getting to that weight took two months of serious but manageable willpower, so the plan was to just do that again. But then I just... didn't. I put a bunch of weight on pre-Christmas, starved myself for a month before the first dress fitting and lost ten pounds, and then seemed to run out of steam. I still tried to diet and exercise but indulged myself on weekends, ended up gaining maybe three pounds after the initial crash diet and then stayed there.
Now I look at the photos, and they're not horrendous or anything but I just look like a larger person than I am in my head if that makes sense? I'm dreading showing my mum the pictures - as a family we're all obsessed with our weight, and she's going to know that I'm disappointed and she won't be able to stop herself saying something about the dress pulling a little around the waist. My sister was my Maid of Honour - she lost two stone for the wedding and I really hate that I couldn't do the same.
It's driving my husband mad that I can't just be happy with the fact that we had a lovely day and now have a very happy marriage, but all I can think about is that I had one shot at this, being thinner clearly matters to me, and I completely blew it. Now I feel like I still need to lose weight, but that I shouldn't try because if I manage it now I'm just going to hate myself even more for not doing it when it mattered. I don't know what to do!
I'd planned to lose a serious amount of weight - I was a stone and a half lighter than I am now four years ago and getting to that weight took two months of serious but manageable willpower, so the plan was to just do that again. But then I just... didn't. I put a bunch of weight on pre-Christmas, starved myself for a month before the first dress fitting and lost ten pounds, and then seemed to run out of steam. I still tried to diet and exercise but indulged myself on weekends, ended up gaining maybe three pounds after the initial crash diet and then stayed there.
Now I look at the photos, and they're not horrendous or anything but I just look like a larger person than I am in my head if that makes sense? I'm dreading showing my mum the pictures - as a family we're all obsessed with our weight, and she's going to know that I'm disappointed and she won't be able to stop herself saying something about the dress pulling a little around the waist. My sister was my Maid of Honour - she lost two stone for the wedding and I really hate that I couldn't do the same.
It's driving my husband mad that I can't just be happy with the fact that we had a lovely day and now have a very happy marriage, but all I can think about is that I had one shot at this, being thinner clearly matters to me, and I completely blew it. Now I feel like I still need to lose weight, but that I shouldn't try because if I manage it now I'm just going to hate myself even more for not doing it when it mattered. I don't know what to do!
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You have a life and that is stressful sometimes. You need to be able to enjoy things without worrying about the calories etc.
Now, if you want to lose some weight do it without the pressure of a wedding coming up.
You'll have looked beautiful and you got married to someone who adores you.
Now, I just need to follow that advice as I get married in 2 months and want to lose a stone but keep comfort eating 🙈🤣
I guess what I'm saying in a long winded way is that you cannot change what's in the past, so try to focus on the amazing way your husband looked at you on your wedding day, because I'm sure you looked stunning!
I'm sure you looked beautiful and still do.
As for OP: please remember that something amazing happened on that day. You got married. Married! I know we always look back at photos and worry but it's not worth ruining the memory of the day over. Remember how you felt ON the day? Hold on to that feeling
and if you do want to lose more weight - go for it. But do it for you, not for one specific day.